Wow this sounds too familiar, reading it breaks my heart for you and for myself.
My problem, I know of, is that I am a feeler and a fixer. I know my husband’s issues come from deep rooted pain and self esteem issues and I desperately want to help him, bit at what cost?! We’ve been together 18 years, it’s only gotten worse. I want to shake love into you, and it makes me mad that I can’t shake myself hard enough.
To make things more ironic, I am an Empath Life Coach. I am a healer. I am an HR professional. I am a lover. What I am not, is all the things my husband calls me or one who deserves all the horrible things he says.. fuck off, stupid bitch, fuck you, dumb mother fucker, look how you treat me you piece of shit, (him replying to me trying to reason and get him to be nice) you are the problem, I can’t even have an opinion, I’m sick of how you treat me, shut TF up, fuck off…
Pointless, sad, not fair.
I hope you see in me what you should see in yourself.
Sending you love and good vibes as I too try to wake myself up xoxo
